What do you feel like before your movements?
During your movements?
After?
Before my movements I often feel this huge urge to stem. It’s like this anticipation is constantly building up in my body until I can start my movements.
During my movements, I am more relaxed, even though my body is tense, due to the release of this build up. After my movements, I feel either one of two ways. I either feel relieved and ready to continue with my day, or I feel relaxed and tired. I often perform my movements before I go to bed or take a nap due to the release of tension I get from it. |
Before: I don’t usually notice when it is about to happen unless I’ve been suppressing it, in which case it feels like there is pressure in my hands.
During: It varies. I don’t notice what I’m physically doing. If it is based on emotion, it doesn’t really feel like anything. If it is based on a thought process then I’m hyper focused on whatever I’m thinking about or I’m completely immersed in the story in my head. After: It doesn’t really feel like anything if it was emotion based. If it was focus based I can’t say there is really much of an after either. If it was imagination based, then I’m still sort of in whatever emotion was happening in the scene in my head. So if I was say, flying on a dragon, there will be that sort of excitement, but if two characters were having a fight in my head there will be this weird residual anger. Not actual anger though. Usually there is a sense of energy of some kind. It is hard to explain. |
Before: I don’t realize I am going to do my movements before I do them. Usually I’m just thinking about something beforehand. There’s no real preemptive feeling that it’s going to happen.
During: I don’t really know what I feel like during my movements, because I’m not paying attention to them. I’m too caught up in all the ideas in my head to pay attention to how I feel about them, or what they feel like. After: I feel excited! My heart is racing and the adrenaline is pumping. It’s a bit like going on a rollercoaster, but without your stomach dropping out. |
Before: It varies. Could be any emotion including boredom.
During: Usually happy, it’s a pleasant feeling with a sense of relief. After: Sometimes I feel like I’ve had a rush of adrenalin. I might have a headache. I might feel relieved. If I’ve been doing them a lot, I may feel tired. And sometimes ashamed because I was taught as a child that they were bad. |
Before: Perhaps a little excited about something, or inspired
During: It’s like a sudden passionate burst of emotion over something which my body translates into action. Usually it is a feeling of enjoyment from whatever I am imagining. After: My heart beats faster and I breathe heavier. I tend to feel a bit ashamed because I was brought up to be embarrassed about my CMS. |